This is another night that I get up around 3 am and cannot go back to sleep for the next three hours. It is going on in my life for almost 15 months. It is probably insomnia at the mild level as it seems I have experience difficulty sleeping or staying asleep. This has started since the break-up with my first love...the most difficult experience in my life...I am not ready yet to write about that!
The strategies that I have used so far to fight insomnia are: watching TV series, Yoga in the middle of the night, listening to light music and writing my diary until my mind finally gets tired and I go back to sleep around 5 or 6. But this is not how the story ends really...there are times when my mind keep thinking of many many things and the fear of a long day ahead makes me heartthrob. I had bad experience that I was awake the whole night until I went to university (my work and study place).I was angry, impatient and unable to deal with problems.
Although, I experience this time to time, there are some weeks when I sleep very well or the nights after a severe sleeping disorder I have no problem with sleeping. There is also another scenario, if I have the day at peace, occupied by different things related to myself and my work, I can have a perfect sleep at night.
Tonight, I woke up at 3 am. Remembering my conversation with my dad, my friends and got upset of confronting sad facts in life. Then I turn on my laptop, let it download the movie "Leon", I wanted to watch if for so long, and started reading "O magazine" edited by Oprah Winfery's organization. I looked for an article related to my problem and luckily me to find a good one with the same title as this post. It was such a relief to know the below facts:
1. More than half women ages 30 to 60, have trouble sleeping through the night, according to a National Sleep Foundation survey.
2. Most insomniacs worsen their condition by worrying about it. Then again, it's hard not to The 11th commandment in this culture might as well be "Thou must have eight hours of sleep"—we fear anything less means not being as fresh, alert, or productive as our well-rested colleagues.
3. Certain people are predisposed to developing insomnia, according to Oneil Bains, MD, director of the insomnia program at Seattle's Virginia Mason Medical Center, and some of the reasons are beyond our control—a woman's genetically determined "sleep drive", for example, and her personality. Life changes can also trigger insomnia, and we can't do much about those, either. But the third element in the slumber trifecta is the way we think about sleep, and that's where free will comes into play.
4. Letting go of that 11th commandment is the first step toward relief. "Most people with insomnia don't need eight hours," Bains says. When they stop fighting with themselves and settle for less, they feel better.
Yes! If I do not worry about the activities in coming day, I can focus how to use this unwanted gift of time. I must accept my body condition and do not fight with it anymore.
Here is what I decide. To write about my thoughts, experiences and beliefs on my blog with reading relevant topics from magazines and watching videos while confronting insomnia. This process draws me a path of becoming a blog writer in English that has been my passion since I got Australia but I could never find time for it!
I actually feel asleep now!
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