A great loss

It was a sunny and beautiful Sunday. This is one of the rare times in my life that I did not have any motivation to go out and enjoy the sunshine. I do not feel to get up from my bed and start my day. I knew the reason behind this non-begin motivated to anything. I have suffered from a great loss in my family over the past two weeks. My dear grandmother has passed away after a period of suffering of cancer. I could not see her before her death and when I got the news, she was gone forever. Confronting this grief all alone here was the most difficult experience I have had during my life in Australia. Like my family back in my country, first I was shocked from the news. But they had each other and they went to rituals and ceremonies in which many relatives and friends came along and showed their sympathy. Only here, I realized that how much this atmosphere helps the remainders to cope with the sadness of a big loss. I touched the deepest moment of sadness. That big emptiness could not filled with anything here... Although I survived the first week, I still feel the sorrow on my heart at the end of the second week. Thankfully, I have some caring friends here who are for me in need. I went to my friends' place in Dandenong, we had a lovely afternoon walk in the garden next to their house. And I had dinner with her husband and her. The joy of being with a couple who truely loved each other, declined my sorrow. I was able to pass the hard day behind finally. Now, I am ready to start the week fresh... I listen to this song and wish my grandmother rest in peace... Mama